SAYING GOODBYE, TO MY FIRST LOVE...

I don't know where to start if I'm being honest. You & me we had so much history, so many memories, I've known you since P7. A very long time. I'm actually lost for words. I just want to say, thank you so much for coming into my life you were the best thing that ever happened to me. I remember when we first met and how much I smiled as I walked to class, you said you'd see me later and I got so excited. We both had such a hard time at school but you were my rock, even if you didn't know it. You made school worth it for me. You gave me advice when things were tough, in your own way of course. I'll never forget the day you asked me out after buying me a beautiful necklace. Which I still have btw haha. My heart skipped a thousand beats if I even heard your name. I loved seeing you and hugging you. I was there for you through some hard times too. You were my first ever relationship, and you made me feel so special for such a long time. You always had a way of making me smile. I'll miss our laughs and our jokes and playful insults and the way your long hair blew in the wind. I always told you I loved you with your long hair. You were my first real crush, my first boyfriend, my first everything. I talked about you to everyone I knew non stop, everyday. I remember when I used to come over to yours after school sometimes. I remember the partys we went too. I'll miss your voice that made me giggly inside. I used to have a diary about you, that's one of my secrets hehe. Every night I wrote in it and hoped we'd be together forever. I remember the first time you grabbed my hand as you walked me home. I remember when we celebrated our anniversary's together. You are my longest relationship, we lasted 2 years and 9 months. We always talked about 3 years being our goal. I know it broke both of us inside when the time came to break up. I remember we were at school and you pulled me aside and told me how you think it's for the best, I stood there smiling as usual with tears in my eyes. You saw me about to cry and you held my hand and said "Don't cry, if you cry I'll cry" We both smiled. I remember walking inside the school as if nothing ever happened and I made my way upstairs to my class but I couldn't hold the tears back any longer. I remember meeting our best friend Chloe at the stairs and just falling into her arms crying historically. Honestly the 3 of us were the best of friends and I'm so thankful you introduced us at the Xmas extravaganza. You were my school sweetheart John. I'll never forget you, and I will always and forever love you. I know we made each other very happy. I'm glad your no longer suffering and your finally happy, you deserve it. R.I.P My darling. I promise to look after Chloe, we love you very much. I'm sure we'll meet again someday. Thank you for everything you have ever done for me including all the gifts. You are special.