Will you remember me when I'm gone?

You drowned your pain in a bottle. You heard those voices inside your head, but tried so hard too shut them out. You were alone in your house with a heart broken in two. Alone in your bedroom, surrounded by darkness. Living in a body that feels so lifeless. You wear so many open wounds and scars upon your beautiful body, "friends" have knocked you down and you can't get back up on your feet. You wonder how a world full of people can feel so lonely. The day you walked in and changed my life, was the day I found my soulmate. I picked up all the broken pieces of my heart and glued them to yours. Now we are together forever, that is what I promised your heart. You step outside on a beautiful sunny day wearing an all black outfit, but in your world through the pain in your eyes, everything seems to be foggy and your mind isn't clear anymore. You were looking for the light, praying at night for a better tomorrow. I'm sorry your prayers could not be answered. You wake up each morning unable to get yourself out of bed, and the voices in your head seem louder than the day before. Through my eyes I found a boy who loved me very deeply. A boy who would do anything too see me smile. I'm just sorry I took you for granted when I had you by my side. I wish you could of stayed just a little longer, but I know that is my selfish heart talking. I loved you more than I could of ever told you with my lips, so now I'm letting my fingers do the talking. I guess I never had the courage to tell you to your face, just how much I did love you. My dear. Now as the days are passing me by, I always carry that very special piece of your heart with me, wherever I go. Sometimes I fall too the ground and I wonder.. why. You had to go so soon. I try too understand but my dear.. it hurts so bad. How could the boy who put my broken heart back together, somehow break it more than I ever thought was possible before. I can't believe it. You are gone now and I am so alone now. My world is filled with darkness and my eyesight has gone foggy, I can't even think straight anymore. Oh my dear. You were the light that lit up my world, you were indeed the light of my entire life. With you around, anything seemed possible. Now. I'm not so sure I can believe that, anymore. My dear. When I close my eyes and fall asleep at night, I find you in my dreams, carrying nothing but the other broken piece of my heart. My. Dear. Is this really goodbye? I'm. Not. Ready. Yet.. but my heart will love you forever, my dear.

Sincerely, me.