Dear Ex: I remember...

You have ruined me. I was a good girl I was young when we first went out we were only 16. I told so many times I got my heart broken once and I was terrified of letting someone else back in. You would hug me and tell me I had nothing to worry about that you loved me and you wouldn't do anything to hurt me, you said you loved me. You promised me forever. I was scared but I believed you, I remember telling you that one day you'd get bored of me but you always said that wouldn't happen you love me you can't live without me. Little did I know what was yet to come. I remember a time we'd talk from morning till night. I remember you always came to me when you were upset. You made me believe you actually cared about me. I fell so fucking deep in love with you that I was blind to who you really were. Sometimes I wish we could go back to the simple days when we were young and happy because believe it or not we used to be at the very start. There was a time I couldn't stop thinking of you. I talked about you to everyone I knew and I couldn't wait until you came online just to talk to me. I remember our long hours of phone calls talking absolute crap. I remember all the smiles and the laughs, I remember the fun we used to have, I remember randomly dancing in your living room when we were home alone or a Thursday after college and we'd chill at yours for hours. Talking and laughing till we cried, watching movies as you put your arm around me and pulled me in close. I remember the kisses, and the butterflies. How could I ever forget or the times I got so nervous around you my heart would skip a thousand beats. I remember the times we'd lay on your couch and I'd lay on my side as you'd lay on your back, you'd have one arm around me and we'd laugh for hours and hours, we'd talk about memories and get to know each other, you promised me the world, your kisses were so sweet I was addicted. Your smell would drive me crazy. We talked about our future and I loved that. I remember every time we lay like that on the couch I'd lay my head on your chest and listen to your heart beating. We talked about everything we loved about each other.. We talked about the day we met and we'd smile. I would hold you tight in arms and smile. I remember the first time you held my hand as we were walking home after college. Me and you were inseparable. I loved putting my arms around your neck and kissing you a million times on your lips that I craved so much. Once upon a time you were all I dreamed about. Now everything is changed and I'm a mess. I will always love you, I mean you were my first love. I don't want you back and right now being your friend again after everything we went through is really tough because your acting like you don't care. Like we never existed you can't even share a memory of us. Tonight I told you that you were my first love and I took the break up really bad, but you didn't care. Your still breaking my heart. All I ask is why? Once upon a time you were really sweet, now your so complicated and your making me cry, I'd tell you all this like I dreamed of but you don't care about me so never mind.