I WANT YOU BACK, YOU BELONG IN THIS WORLD!

I always really fucking miss you at this time. Always early hours in the morning and I find myself thinking about you. I start crying and can't stop. Our memories come back in flashes and the crying gets worse. I have this sharp ache in my chest and it's like I can't breathe anymore.I can't deal with this pain, everyone asks 'are you okay' no I'm not I' in pain everyday since you left me here in this world without you. I miss you I miss everything about you. Like you smile and the way you would cheer me up when i was down. You hated it when I cried. You always said if I cry you would too. I'm shaking with the thought of living without you. I never thought I'd loose you. Your the one who always made me really happy, the only person who knew how to make things better. I miss the way you cared. Nobody cares about me the way you did. I hate that your not here anymore, I CAN'T HANDLE THIS! I HATE IT. Life isn't the same anymore. I just...wish you were here. I hate this feeling inside of me that is tearing me apart. I'm not me anymore.